A Letter to Mom - 1 Year Later

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I can’t believe it has been a year since I had to let you go.  I think of you each and every morning and then several more times throughout the day. Today I will try my best not mourn too hard. Instead I am trying to smile and laugh because you would want that most. It’s so incredibly hard though.  

Mom

Mom

I often ask myself what if I had one more day with you, what would  I tell you?  Of course I would tell you how much I miss you, how much  I love you, I would tell you about the moments you have missed, how your grandchildren and great grandchildren are doing, etc. but I also would tell you something I don’t think I really ever told you enough and that would be Thank You. 

These past 365 days I have had a lot of time to remember and there are so many memories.  Because of those memories I now have an even deeper understanding of all you did for us.  I think in many ways we took it for granted , I know I did , You were simply always there , always supporting us, laughing with us, worrying about us and so we, or at least me , did not say thank you enough so yes, if I had one more day I would make sure that while sitting with you eating your Banana Bread, always with the perfect amount of butter spread on it I would thank you for being the women you were, the friend you were, the mom you were.

One more thing mom,   In those last few moments when it was obvious you were on your way to dad and Chris you and I were alone in that hospital room and I  made a promise to you.  Know mom that I continue to keep that promise.  I always, always will.  I miss you, I cry for you and I Love you and yes as I said I thank you!!  

PS. Ben (the dog) is right here next to me as I write this.  He misses you too and is doing well!!